How to face your feelings?
One of the biggest problems I have with my feelings, besides not knowing what I'm feeling, is feeling multiple feelings at one time. Normally when this happens my head is going a hundred miles a minute, my disease kicks into over drive, and I feel like the world is going to end. I usually feel crazy.
Over the years through my recovery I have learned some tools that I can use when I'm feeling crazy. The first thing I need to do is get in the moment. Where am I? I need to look at what is REALLY going on.
I have found that journaling is an amazing way to release these feelings and find out what is really going on up there. If I don't get the racing thoughts out of my head and onto the paper my head will continue to spin and my shitty committee will take over. I have found for me the best way to journal is to type so that I can get my thoughts out quicker.
By this time, if I haven't already, I take the time to say the Serenity Prayer. I reaffirm to myself that Gods is in control and His will for me is better then I could ever imagine. I know that I only have the power to change my actions and my actions can change the way I feel.
I usually call someone to verify that I'm not crazy and I'm not alone. They understand these feelings and thoughts and they share their experience with my.